Say what?!

Oh hey there blog, sorry I neglected you again for a long period of time like always… I promise it will not hap… nevermind we all know that’d be a lie if I promised that… So now the issue of what to write… as is always the problem with blogs since it is really just a completely opinionated bunch of garbage written by someone to express what they believe to be profound statements of profundity (I know that was a very profound statement) that really only boosts their own ego by thinking their insight should be shared with the entire human population… perhaps this is why I blog.

So let’s move on to more pressing issues shall we… I am not going to sugarcoat my day like … sugar covering…a … coat?... but my day has not been that fantastic… in fact on a scale of good days, this would rank rather low… however, I still attempt to remain optimistic about ("aboot" for my Canananananandian friends) it all. I find it more that I am struggling with the day internally than I am from the external factors that are surrounding it all... Now some could argue that it are this events occurring outside the realm of my control that are indeed affecting (not effecting) my inner self and causing turmoil. The other whole weird thing about it all is the fact that I am completely content with myself and the way I act, and yet I seemingly deliberately sabotage myself in order to perhaps prove the reality of myself. I feel it is some underground man syndrome (Dostoevsky ftw) where I need to prove the pain in order to accept the reality that I am actually a pretty awesome guy. So I continually battle the ideas that perhaps I am really not living life as good as I could be and to reassure myself that I am I begin to purposefully make poor decisions. It makes me feel alive for the moment, surely, but alas I end up thinking that perhaps I should just believe it all from the beginning without needing to go through the hassles of perhaps destroying my own positive reputation.


I am not even sure that this all makes sense, but it makes sense to me and as I previously stated, I think that's all bloggers really care about.