Persuaded

My friends made me do it.
And so now every time I think about it,
I shutter
in disbelief that I actually did it,
but now in disbelief that I allowed them to persuade me.
I trusted,
that their minds together were more sound than mine solo.
I suppose I was silly to think that.
Silly to believe that things,
stuff, junk, garbage would actually be a change
that I desperately needed.
They vicariously lived through me,
when I was simply excited for the simplicity of the situation.
And so I was persuaded,
either by good intentions,
or selfish desires.

My Mother

Every time I was sick, my mother would tell me, "Oh it is the weather," regardless of what it was. "Ma, I have a sore throat," I would whimper to her. "It's 'cause of your allergies, the clouds are comin' in thick this time o' year." For the longest time I thought that the clouds were these omniscient and omnipotent beings that controlled my fate. And every moment they got bored with how the world was going, they would change the weather to make people sick. It did not make much sense to me as to why they would do this, but at the same time, it did not make much sense why they would not abuse their powers. So I would take the same medicine every time, to clear up my sinuses, my sore throat, my rash, my headache, my stomach ache, my athlete's foot and my broken arm. "Allergies are bad this time o' year," she repeated in April, June, July, August, and November. I shrugged it off because sometimes the medicine worked... okay seldom the medicine worked. But it was this hope I had that the sickness was actually one that could be cured by allergy medicines that I held on to for my entire childhood. In reality there was no reason I kept taking the same thing, it did not taste good, people knew me as "Dyin' Bryan" because I was always sick, and most of all, it never helped me. I was constantly in the nurse's office. They would always suggest I take this pain reliever or headache curing mumbo jumbo, but I refused. My friend's parents would try the same thing, and try to give me some different medicine but I insisted, "My momma always tells me that all I need is love and allergy medicine." They always shook their head... I never really understood why.
And I suppose none of this really changed, because now as my wiser and older self, I see myself resorting to the same tactics that I used to. I still look at the skies praying to the clouds that they do not leave me and my battered down immune system to cry another night into my pillow. And whenever I try to help, my friends always shake their heads and walk away. Once my friend told me he had cancer, and I pulled out my allergy medicine and said, "take two." My coworker told me he was gay, so I pulled out the medicine and said, "take two." My girlfriend told me I do not make her happy anymore and that when she needs me the most, I am no where to be found... so I said, "take two of these." But I still take that same medicine every day, hoping that I have an illness that can be cured by it. I still tell my friends that I do not need their help, and I know how to take care of myself. And yet, I still am in the hospital every Thursday to Saturday, and occasionally Tuesday. I do not understand what is wrong with me.

This is not yours.

Welcome to the world of ranting. Let us commence...now

I am having a tiny bit of difficulty with understanding things nowadays. This whole "let us make decisions together" attitude that we continue to associate with every aspect of life is becoming overwhelming. Perhaps just once in our lives we can start worrying about ourselves.

Now don't get me wrong, decisions are a vital part of human existence and I am ALL for getting advice from others, however, there are various aspects where my best interest is more important than yours.

Por ejemplo... parties, break-ups, vacations, weddings and careers are just a few examples where your opinion basically means crap. There are many reasons for this.

Certain aspects of my life are either once in a lifetime or are things that seldom occur, thus, you had your one chance, now quit trying to take mine. People need to realize the boundaries of things. I do not care where you think I should go on vacation or what you think would make me money in the future as a career, do you not see that this affects me and solely me? Do you not realize that who I date or who I invite to my party has absolutely nothing to do with your desires!

Why do people insist on taking that one time I make a decision away from me?

"To thine ownself be whatever the fuck you want to be."

Unwanted Guest

I am done with worrying, I shant allow that pushy selfish emotion to get in the way with the life I am trying so hard to live. If you plan on bringing this unwelcomed guest to my dinner party, POR FAVOR reconsider. Anyone attached with him will be treated accordingly. It is not to say that I will not help you also rid him from your life as well, but if you are just going to link yourself to his arm and play red rover with me, I can assure you right now that I refuse to "come over."

Continue your tea party, I lost the invitation in the mail.

One of Those

I'm one of those non away message putting uppers ... that just abscond from the scene quicker than they came ... but you can never tell ... because I do not warn you of my departure ... no note card stating I am "eating lunch... be back later" to give you a hint or clue as to where I am ... so you message me and message me without my response ...

Perhaps we will both learn ...

T-Gives

Happy T-Gives, which is my version of Thanksgiving because I am that lazy. Regardless, I figured I would just write a list of things I am thankful for and then call it a blog ...

Colors
Nature
Smiles
Friends
Family
Pandas
Being Alive
Health
Relaxation
Stuffed Animals
Little Acts of Kindness
Poetry
Tolerance
Differences Between Our Population
Peace
Music
Charity
Pasta
Blogs
Trees
The Universe
Strangers
Blankets and Pillows
Everything and Everyone I have ever encountered

Thank you for being there.
Enjoy the day!

RIP

Dearest "End";

You and I were just beginning to be the greatest friends. You easily helped me get from where I was to where I needed to be with just one stroke. You eased the stress of me slapping belligerently my right arrow key, who now also is feeling the pain of your early departure. I was finally getting to know you, the essence of your existence and I was just beginning to utilize you for all of your capabilities. Your partner in crime, "Home," also will miss you, as he can only complete one half of the job. I am sorry that as we were finally connecting, I decided it was best to attempt surgery on you. I knew you were in pain from the lack of spring in your step, I wanted to fix you. I tried using all of the other methods I knew before going in for the surgery. It was a matter of life or death, and unfortunately, the result was the latter. I really never meant to hurt you, I never wanted to. You just frustrated me with your rigid touch, I needed to make you livelier once more. And I murdered you. As simple as that. I killed you, and now all that is left is your squishy organ, but without you it is just not the same. Now I must search for the epicenter in order to even get it your cadaver to function.

I will miss you greatly, "End." You were becoming my new best friend, but I denied us that happiness. Thank you for always being there and helping me throughout this stressful time of year.

Rest in peace.

Love always,
TJ

Untitled

Untitled

Here is an experiment like the one Dr. Frankenstein performed,
To create life out of nothing more than electric shock like sticking a fork in an electrical outlet.
For my words are as limp as a cadaver's arms
Trying to slap you like a mother hits her disobeying child
But you are like a robber and steal my vitality like a drunk drinks his beer,
As quick as a Thomson's Gazelle escaping his demise.
You stand there as cool as the middle of December,
Eating my body like the customers of the Demon Barber of Fleet Street,
And smile as big as a upside-down umbrella across your face.
You know me like a proven science, my actions as unpredictable as tears following sadness
And I have no idea who you are like a stranger with a mask wearing a hat.
But you will continually claw at me as a kitten claws at yarn
until my face is like a raw bloodied chunk of meat.
So take your prize like kids swipe candy during Halloween
and look at me as a dog does his bone,
Because I no longer live like I used to in harmony and content,
But like a child finding out that Santa does not exist.

The Floor

Either my roommate has the hottest feet ever or he peed on the floor because tiles should not be that warm when my feet touch them.

That is all I have for today.

So enjoy this silly limerick and haiku I made up about the previously stated predicament.

The Tiles

The floor seems warm underneath my feet
Where the skin of my toes and the tile meet
So I check under my heel
To see what I feel
And hope that pee is not the cause of the heat

Yeah, Limericks are not my strong suit

Warmth

Tiles generate
Heat that they should not possess
Hope it is not pee

Haikus are so much better

I really don't know why I even bothered posting this.

"Sometimes when the world is uncertain, you just have to hope and continue on with life."

Falling Back Into ...

...Anonymity

Oh! How the days seemed so vibrant and luminous in the days of yore. How the title of this blog needs to be switched, as no longer am I falling from anonymity as I once was, but instead regressing back to my state of falling into it once more. It is not that this truly bothers me to the point where I cannot go forward with my life, as I am a strong enough individual to know my own self-worth, however, to never be acknowledged does also take a toll on the human body and ego.

I am aware that my physical attractiveness will never be able to grace a "highly acclaimed" beauty magazine, where even though you are not even looking at the magazine rack the front cover model it catches your eye while you knee deep in Aisle 14-- Cookies and Chips. However, I am also aware I am not ugly either, but basically all of these are subjective terms used to basically inflate or debase the egos of those around us and give money guzzling companies canvases in which they can display their products for consumers to masturbate over in their bedrooms at night. I will not be that person that everyone unanimously thinks is so gorgeous, but I'm okay with that. However, I am overshadowed to the point where not only is my outward appearance being deflected into the black hole of social outcasts, but apparently I no longer am given the time of day to speak without my words also being deflected into, let's arbitrarily name it, the seventeenth dimension. I am confident enough to know that what I say has value, but from the looks of society it seems the ones that ramble on about absolutely nothing and boast about themselves are given the most attention. Furthermore, there are other random characteristics which seem to be predetermined in peoples mind that if you do not have from the beginning, they tend to simply write you off. Since when did this need to have erratic traits ever exist for someone to listen to someone else? It is as if I am not Canadian, I cannot speak about the Toronto Maple Leafs. Don't dismiss me based off of nonsense. Society has shaped us like the clay to harden into a hallow outer shell. It is something I guess I need to start getting used to...

I do wish to stress it is not that I want to be the center of attention, I just want acknowledgment of my existence. Because as I started this post as ... it feels like I am falling straight back into anonymity...

Going Crazy

Welcome to the end of October, where my thoughts have difficulties deciphering between Spanish and English (which occasionally ends up confusing people who only speak one of the two). Where now there stands a Pringles can(Ranch Flavored if you were curious) with a hole poked in the plastic top to allow two feathers to shoot out of it like some crazy parrot with a bad hair day. Where the buzzing of my room light has driven me to the point where sitting in the pitch black keeps my sanity. I am drunk, and not from alcohol.

Oh October you have stolen my energy. I am exhausted to the point where I laugh hysterically for no reason and jokes simply confuse me. At the time where the clock reads 1:23 pm and five minutes later it reads 8:12 pm. The point where the rock hard ground is the most comfortable thing I have ever lain upon. Where the phone is my only communication with the outside world, and Facebook is basically my desktop screensaver.

Aye Octubre. Spending nine dollars on a aluminum water bottle attached at my hip so that I can consistently have the ability to save myself from passing out from dehydration. Where a piece of gum saves me the need to eat lunch. Where the leaves fall upon my shoulder and I turn around to see who is there (it is no one) Where I am thankful I chose to buy a cactus because any other plant would have died from neglect by now.

Tenth month of the year, you slay me. I write about you with such disdain (which now I have to look up to make sure I am using it in the proper context). Your weather has brought timid breezes which knock me on the sidewalk, and torrential downpours which I drown myself in.

I have a feeling November may murder me.

Cold War

Cold War

We have entered another cold war,
          Krushchev, and I am awaiting the text of your
secret speech. You shut the doors on my rotting corpse,
          but I respect your leadership.
You call me Stalin, which I resent,
          and you mock my every thought.
We have a Civil Cold War here,
          Krushchev, reversing the order of time.
Thawing the liberty from heart’s choices,
          as I attempted to freeze yours in my palm.
Struggling for power between ourselves,
          and within the world, Oh USA,
                    Truman how your doctrine teases me!
          Fight your own frivolous war and remain out of ours.
Krushchev, I beg of you, retract your beliefs,
          I shall do the same. We will start over.
Knowing that the world we created,
          Is just as evil as this war.

Welcome

Welcome it would read in larger letters, preferably green with maybe a grey background, but then again that could be an eyesore. The sign would stand out though, the colors right now are not important. But it would be colorful, or colourful, nonetheless in order to greet everyone to the colorful community beyond the sign. Welcome.

There will be a squirrel waiting on the tree trunk, his name is Harry and he will greet everyone one by one as they bicycle their way into the town (No Cars Beyond This Point, Sorry If It Inconveniences You But It Also Inconveniences Nature) as Harry smiles and holds his nuts. He waves as you pass through.

Keep walking and you'll see the trees, as they too greet those entering with a waving hand. On the right there a bus stop for the bus that goes through town to help those who refuse to, or just never learned how to, ride a bike... and it is completely water powered and is a marvelous achievement in ingenuity.

On some of the corners there are prostitutes, which also smile but in a more, "Hey I need some cash and can make you happy," sort of way. They know the danger they put themselves through every night they stand on those curbs, all the male and female professional love makers... well ... maybe not "love" but hardcore sex. But this is their choice, and do not say they are forced into it because there are a variety of jobs they can seek, but prostitution is no more degrading than being a lawyer neither.

And occasionally they work during the wrong time of month, and we have seen our fair share of that, but we prepare ourselves. Rather them damage themselves with illegal procedures, there is an abortion center right in the center of town. It does not receive much business, but when it does, it is safe and all options are measured before the final plunge.

All of the religions can be freely expressed, all voices freely heard, and all petitions can be made. In fact, there is a protest on the steps of the abortion clinic later in the week on Tuesday, if you would like, Harry will gladly hand you the flyer.

Civil disobedience and boycotts of major corporations are a think of the norm, but others continue their shopping extravaganza giving into the supply and demand free market. Walmart does not exist here, but it is okay because we have other businesses that care for the workers and consumers alike.

The law includes all people under that settle beyond the Welcome sign at the gate. No matter where they came from or where they are going, they have the right to marry freely to whomever they chose, the right to vote for whatever they want to vote, they can visit their loved ones in the hospital, and they can get hired for whatever job they have the skills for and can obtain an education without discrimination. This not to say anyone can get accepted, in fact I was denied for art school the other day, but I do not blame them (my dog looked like it was an anorexic hippo), but everyone has the right and ability to apply and have a fair and equal opportunity and chance to get it.

Animals can not be tested on, or else we may run out of gate keepers like Harry; before him there was Marsha the Duck, she unfortunately passed on though. Animals are protected by law from being poached, hunted, and slaughtered in cruel ways, although due to the fact that we are indeed animals ourselves, it is not to say we are all vegetarians, although many are.

Gambling and drinking are legal for all above 16 although monitored to ensure an abuse is not occurring. And the media has few censorships, as a parent should be more incorporated in the lives of their children then the media companies that put out their entertainment. Plus, what is a profane word but just another word Webster has in his dictionary? And what is nudity but just something seen in the mirror before hopping into the shower?

Finally, we are using stem cell research to try and better the human race and cure diseases that have the potential to devastate the world. And all of the taxes that are paid give results that are visible to the population... roads, better education, and medical and retirement aid.

Welcome the sign still reads. And if you don't like to have the ability to make mistakes, choose your career without ridicule, have the opportunity for a career, have the aid of the government, and to respect everyone and everything around you and have those same people respect you the same... the sign will read Turn Around... Neither of Us Wants You Here

"A world that restricts you acts like a plastic bag over your head."

Boredom Strikes Once More

'Cause procrastination is key ...

When is the last time you attended a church service?
If a wedding counts, within a year ... if a wedding does not count ... I cannot even give you a good guess it's been that long

Do you know anyone that smokes weed?
Yup yup

What color under wear are you wearing?
Grey ... how lame

What are you doing tomorrow?
Schoolwork ... because my life is that exciting...

Does the person you like, like you back?
Your guess is as good as mine... but I want to say yes?

Are you imagining anyone naked right now?
Awkward ... I wasn't before but now that you mention it ...

Would you rather be at the beach or the lake?
Lake

Is there a certain guy/girl in mind, you cant get OFF your mind?
No comment

What do you mostly watch on YouTube?
Viral Videos

Do you believe in forever?
I believe the word exists...

What's the background on your cell?
Picture of the sun setting over the rocks at the beach

Do you consider 4/20 a holiday?
Nope

Do you trust people easily?
Yup

Does the song you're listening to remind you of anyone?
The Way by Fastball? Can't say that it does ...

Can you commit to one person?
Yes... yes I can

What color did you last paint your nails?
Ummm ... I keep them their natural color

Last thing you spent money on?
Gas... a whole lot of gas

Do you wanna have kids before you are 30?
Umm ... I don't even know if I want a pet before I am 30

When was the last time you saw your mom?
Day before my birthday

Did you make out with anyone today?
Not that I know of

Have you ever burned yourself?
Hasn't everyone?

Are you the type of person who likes to be out or home?
Depends on the situation, but I suppose majority of the time I would rather eat out

Anything you are looking forward to?
Uhh ... not really ... live in the moment

Are you happy?
I am

Last thing you ate/drank?
Cranberry Juice

Do you have any expensive jewelry?
Nope

Do you have a favorite month?
November

Favorite fast food restaurant?
Taco Bell ... duh

How is the weather today?
Apparently really hot

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
Yup yup

Were you single on your last birthday?
Yes

Would you ever tell someone you loved them first?
Yikes ... I mean, depends on the situation ... I could see it happening

Will you be in a relationship next month?
Now how am I supposed to know that?

Can you name the last time you felt happy?
Right ... now?

What time did you wake up this morning?
Sadly 11:10

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
Yes ... yes I do

Whats the last thing you and your ex talked about?
Basically how brilliant I am with unscrambling letters to make words

Last voice mail you received?
My mother, because I try to avoid answering the phone sometimes

Are you bored right now?
Just a wee bit

Looking back in time did you ever waste your time on a certain boy or girl?
Nope

Are you depressed?
Currently or in general? Regardless, no

A fact about the person you like?
I feel like this is 5th grade ... umm ... I guess ... dork

What happened at 10:00 AM today?
I wish I knew ... but I was in dreamworld

Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Nopes

Something you just don't understand?
Really? There are a LOT of things I don't understand. But if you want an example, why do people like Miley Cyrus' Party in the USA?

Name someone whose name starts with the letter "N"
Nicole

Do you plan on moving in the next year?
Plan on it... will it happen ... who knows

What are you thinking of right now?
Why does my throat hurt?

What are you doing right now besides this survey?
Watching ESPN and playing Final Fantasy Tactics ... apparently I am a superior multitasker

Exactly where did you get the clothes you're wearing right now?
I have no idea where I get any of my clothes ...

What are you looking forward to in the next week?
Again with these things in the future ... I have no idea

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
Umm yes...

What was the last movie you watched?
Like full movie? I cannot recall... probably Mean Girls

January, what was your love life like?
No comment

Are you afraid to grow up?
Afraid is not the correct word

What if your boyfriend/girlfriend called you at 2 in the morning crying?
Do anything in my power to get a smile

Will tomorrow be a good day?
Of course...

Do you get mad easily?
Depends on what is getting me mad, but it is possible to quickly agitate me yes.

Do you like people in general?
I'm going to say no unfortunately ...

What color are your pants?
You mean shorts? Oh okay, blue

Do they have anything on them?
No

What was the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Still cranberry juice

Whose birthday is coming up?
Goss'

Do you want your tongue pierced?
No thanks

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
The thought crosses my mind but ultimately, nah

This time last year, can you remember who you were going out with?
Yes... what a dumb question

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?
I enjoy this question and yes.

What is your favorite thing about the beach?
Walking on the beach where the waves crash into the sand during the sunset...

What would you say if you found out your last ex was in a relationship?
I hope they can make you happier than ever

Where is the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed?
Mattress on the floor

Are all of your friends virgins?
HA! That is my answer

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Sigh, I don't want to change my eye color, but I guess just ... like ... pure green ... haha

When was the last time you cried?
Not too long ago I feel but I cannot give specifics as I cannot recall

What do you always take with you?
Phone

Is your bed comfortable?
Eh... only because I'm exhausted when I lie in it

How are you feeling at this moment?
I'm well thanks

Did your last kiss take place on a bed?
Nope

Don't you just love hoodies?
Yes!

Do you believe exes can be friends?
Incredibly difficult but possible

Do you like filling these out?
Sometimes

Describe your life at this point last year:
Disliking my major but enjoying everything while I could

Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
Really? 'Cause it felt right?

If you married the last person you texted, what would your name be?
Thomas Rendleman

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
Oh you know my feelings... I talk and write them

Scariest moment of 2009 so far?
I'd rather not post that...

What are you drinking?
Really? Still Cranberry Juice

How is your hair?
Long on the sides

Who do you tell the most to?
Alysse, Marissa and Goss

Do you know anyone with the same shirt you are currently wearing?
Nopes

Have you been in a car accident?
Not as driver but yes I have physically been in the car in two actually

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
Naw it happens

What were you doing at 8 AM this morning?
Dreaming

Orange or apple juice?
Depends on my mood, but orange juice probably

When will your next kiss be?
Really? What is with these predictive questions? I am not a psychic ... I'll say, October 2nd at 9:43 PM and it will be GLORIOUS... dumb question

Do you cry easily?
Eh

Whose bed did you lay in last?
Mine...

Do you tend to make things complicated?
Accidentally... yeah

What's on your mind right now?
The same thing when this question was asked before ... why does my throat hurt?!

Best summer?
Uhh ... cannot judge

What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
Ending this questionnaire with my sanity left...

Anything exciting tomorrow?
Really? This is just repeating questions now...

Are you currently wanting to be with someone?
Kinda sorta

How many times have you fought with the last person you kissed?
0?

Will you introduce the last person you kissed to your parents?
Um... what? I don't introduce a lot of people to my parents in general so I'll just say no

Have you ever been a gymnast or a cheerleader?
.... no

Do you ever turn off your cell phone?
No

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
Yeah

Have you ever taken dance classes?
Negative captain

Do you pick your words carefully, or just tend to blurt everything out?
It is situational but I try to think before I speak

Do you prefer mint, citrus, or cinnamon toothpaste?
Citrus will always win no matter what category we are talking about

Would you ever go to Hawaii?
Who wouldn't?

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
That would be called Karma, yes

Is your birthday on a holiday?
Sometimes it is on Labor Day, but I was not actually born on Labor Day so no

Does anyone think you are a bitch?
Probably

What were you doing at 1 AM this morning?
Watching ESPN and playing PSP... apparently that is my life

What's currently bothering you?
It would be a long, long story

Do you miss your past?
Nah, again, gotta live in the present

If you could go back 6 months and change something would you?
Nopes

Who is thinking about you right now?
Hopefully a few people... but I have no idea

Would you go out in public looking like you do now?
Yeah

Is it okay if you kiss people when you are single?
.... Yes? Why wouldn't it be okay?

Do you always answer your phone?
97% of the time

Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
Yes

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
No

Have you cried today?
No

Where will you be two hours from now?
Probably same place I am right now

What year were you born?
1988

Who is your 9th contact in your phone?
Ble

Have you had your birthday yet this year?
Yup Yup

How many letters are in your middle name?
5

Have you ever dyed your hair an unnatural color?
Yes, but just darker ... no one noticed...

How's your heart lately?
Pumping like it's never pumped before?

Do you think someone has feelings for you?
Possibly

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
Not really

Do you get distracted easily?
Umm ... just a bit

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a A, B, C, and F?
How could their name start with 4 letters? I will say no on the basis that I don't think I have kissed anyone with an F ...

How many pillows are on your bed?
2 and a body pillow makes 3! I am good with counting

Do you have any cousins?
Yes.

Who was the last person you talked to?
In person? Houston. Via other device? Marissa

If you had 1 week to live, what would you do?
Stuff that I plan on doing later on life but due to the obvious lack of time, would have to do it with a little more haste...ie: sky dive and travel to Spain

Would you rather wear necklaces, bracelets, rings, or earrings?
Necklaces

Would you rather go to a beach, an amusement park, or a water park
Amusement Park!

If the last person you kissed, saw you kissing someone else, would they be mad?
Possibly...

Who knows a secret about you that no one else knows?
Umm ... I don't really have any secrets... pretty much what you see is what you get

Is your birthday in August? If so, what day?
Negatory

Have you ever maintained a real serious conversation while drunk?
Nope

What were you doing before this survey?
Same thing I am doing while doing the survey

Who were the last people, besides family that you saw?
Houston, Katherine, Amy just to name three

Enjoy that one!

"Sometimes not taking the risk hurts more than failing in the risk itself."

Random Rules You Should Know

Rule #3: Don't spin in a chair if you get motion sickness easily.

Top 5 Songs You Should Know About

5. Evacuate the Dance Floor - Cascada

4. Manos Al Aire - Nelly Furtado

3. Scared of Me - Fedde Le Grand

2. Bulletproof - La Roux

1. Crazy Possessive - Kaci Battaglia

Una sonrisa para ti! =)

Why Not?

Rules:
1. Put your music library on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.
4. Ok, go!

1. What do your friends say about you?
Beautiful Girls - Sean Kingston

Not a good start...

2. How would your coworkers describe you?!
Some People Change - Kenny Chesney

Who are these coworkers?

3. How would you describe yourself?
Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson

Exactly...

4. What do you like in a romantic partner?
Beautiful Dirty Rich - Lady Gaga

Eerie is it not?

5. How do you feel today?
American Woman - Lenny Kravitz

What are with these woman comments?!

6. What is your life’s purpose?
More Than This - Vanessa Carlton

Oh so much more than this ...

7. What is your motto?
Lovegame - Lady Gaga

Let's have some fun this beat is sick?

8. What do you think about the most?
My Dear Acquaintance (A Happy New Year) - Regina Spektor

That's kinda nice...

9. What are you going to do on your next vacation?
Drift Away - Doobie Brothers

Okay, this is a little too correct now...

10. What do you think of your first love/date?
In a Dream - Rockell

It was ... It was...

11. What is your life story?
Up Where We Belong - Joe Cocker and Jennifer Warnes

Eh, not so much

12. What did you do yesterday?
Good Ole Fashion Lover Boy - Queen

....

13. What do you think of when you see the person you like/love?
Life in Tenement Square - Flogging Molly

Apparently not so good...

14. What describes your wedding?
Nookie - Limp Bizkit

HA!

15. What will they play at your funeral?
Addicted - Simple Plan
Not really appropriate for a funneral...

16. What is your obsession?
Say You'll Be There - Spice Girls

Apparently I am obsessed with people being there...

17. What is your biggest fear?
Can't Fight The Moonlight - LeAnn Rimes

I NEED TO FIGHT IT!

18. What is your biggest secret?
Never Ever - All Saints

I'll never tell...

19. What is your biggest turn-on?
Slow Motion - Juvenile

Oh yeah, best believe when you slow down I go crazy...

20. How do you describe your friends?
Spanish Guitar Jammin - Rodrigo y Gabriela

They aren't just jammin, they are Spanish Guitar Jammin...

21. What would you do with a million dollars?
El Amor (El Patron) - Tito "El Bambino"

They say you can't buy love .. well you can buy el amor...

22. What is your opinion of sex?
For You From Me - Jon McLaughlin

How romantic of me

23. What is your biggest regret?
Para ti seria - Nek

Yup

24. What would you rather be doing right now?!
Wouldn't it be good - Cascada

Apparently daydreaming?

Rant o' The Day

And she turns to him and says, "You're cute."
Smiling he responds, "Thanks, you're not too bad yourself."

---

Where in the world is this ever acceptable? Perhaps I am taking this too literally or something, but I feel like never should one say the words, "You're not too bad yourself," regardless of joking, trying to be cute, or otherwise. Only if you are serious and are walking the opposite direction do I feel like the words you're not too bad yourself are acceptable.

There are reasons why I feel this way about such a statement.

A) It has the word bad in the "compliment"

This is not a good thing. I feel (solely my opinion) a compliment should only exist of positive remarks. Por ejemplo, saying, "These Frosted Mini Wheats (MMMMMMM) are not bad at all," is not nearly as convincing or positive as let's say, "These Frosted Mini Wheats are delicious!" Now, I understand both of these statements actually could mean too different things, however, if they are "not bad at all" why not just say they are "good" or "delicious." This probably just irks me due to the fact I believe society is incredibly pessimistic and cannot just say, "You know what, things are good."

B) It sounds fakely positive

No matter how you put it, it just seems insulting. If you don't think the other is cute, just don't say anything, say, "aww thanks," accept the compliment and move on. If you were really amazing, you'd probably admit that you are not into them but still say other positive of the other person instead of physical appearance, but I do not expect that to happen.

C) It is kinda a little painful to hear

You are basically taking the compliment, and then throwing it in there face that not only that the other is ugly, but you are going to placate their feelings by making it seem like you don't think they are ugly. But, again, REGARDLESS of whether you say this in a joking tone or not, it still elicits this feeling of like, ouch, I just got burned with a backwards insult.


Again, perhaps I am just looking too much into this simple sentence, perhaps I lost my sense of what was "cute" with my aging mind and body, however, this was just a little rant I figured I should share with the world.

Enjoy!

"Express yourself, even if you think no one is listening to you."

Random Rules You Should Know

Rule #2: When you say you cannot stand when people chew obnoxiously and loud, do not chew obnoxiously and loud yourself.


Top 5 Songs The Radio Ruined

5. I Gotta Feeling - Black Eyed Peas

4. Knock You Down - Keri Hilson featuring Kanye West & Ne-Yo

3. Lovegame - Lady Gaga

2. I Know You Want Me - Pitbull

1. Fire Burning - Sean Kingston

Thank you radio, for ruining all of these songs for us by playing them on every station at least once every thirty minutes.

Other ruined songs include Battlefield - Jordin Sparks, Waking up in Vegas - Katy Perry (side note, Waking up in Vegas is an awful song to begin with), Boom Boom Pow - Black Eyed Peas

Enjoy the day, smile when you can!

The Short Stik VII

(For my brother... sorry I have not written in this in a while)
(edit: this is for my brother because he asked me to write a poem including the words "shit," "poop," etc, because we are mature.)

Shitville

Welcome to Shitville,
Population steadily increasing,
In the billions now.
Traffic is constipated,
The lakes of diarrhea overflowing
with rancor, spilling into the mutilated lands
of greens and browns.

Air filled with the poisonous oxygen of people's wastes,
Noxiously suffocating the throats
of shitville, drowning them.
The people known as the nicest
in the land, for their caring
is covered in shit and filth,
but underneath is genuine bronze.

Weather is beautiful, then changes
within seconds to a smog-riddled
masterpiece of crap. The elders
sit outside on stools, protectors
of their neighbors and waste their days.
Agriculture is booming with the addition
of manure to the farmer's bag of shits
to use to cultivate their terrain.

Shitville is excreting the most corn
to people, yet unfortunately, hunger
runs ramped through the streets.
But for a vacation, there is no better place
to go, then Shitville.

Random Rules You Should Know

Beginning a new section called "Random rules you should know", they will appear randomly as the title suggests, and will be short without explanation and to the point.

Rule #1: Never begin dating someone within two months of their birthday


Top 5 Songs of the Day
Some Songs Are Old But That Doesn't Mean I Can't Listen To Them


5. Paparazzi - Lady Gaga

4. Breakin' Dishes - Rihanna

3. Que Vida La Mia - Reik

2. Boom Boom Pow - Black Eyed Peas

1. Goodbye - Kristinia DeBarge

I can probably guarantee none of these songs will be on the next top 5 list...

Enjoy the day!

The Short Stik VI

Welcome toThe Short Stik.

The Short Stik

I dun think ice lure,
But when ice peak,
None seem tonderstand.
Whachu sayin they ply.
In eye repeat.

Buddies till confused.
Ice low it down,
My clear?
Buddies till not aunt sermon me.
Ice steam clearing my head.

But I no my make cents
If instead of herring per faction
Ewe glisten to me
With oh pioneers
Not in toll rants.

Discovery IV

(Note, the title sounds like a space ship)

I honestly do not know why I am entitling this one as part of the Discovery series (...actually who am I kidding calling these rants parts of series), but I did and I am not looking back (because I would not be able to see the computer screen anymore...oh yeah, it is one of these posts). So I am genuinely going to write more in this, (scratch genuinely, substitute "try" and reorient the sentence to make sense ) since I am jobless currently ( and for once I am not happy about this fact ) and have a lot of downtime to fill in my lackadaisical life of lethargy.

Okay, so this is Discovery IV (because we couldn't discover it the first three times). I am like searching through my brain (Which I imagine to be like a library with very little books on the shelves) for something (not to be confused with anything) to say. But alas, I cannot even think of one thing at all. Perhaps my mind is racing too much (and losing, my mind is more of a long distance runner anyway) and I just cannot focus it on one thing or "discovery" as I so aptly (not so aptly named this entry.

Alright, I have discovered (that sounds more profound that it actually is, in fact I am just making this on the spot ). Humans go to extreme lengths (I wonder why not widths ) to prove a point that does not need to be proven more often than not. Por ejemplo, let us set up an imaginary scenario, where a samurai (Did I fail to mention we are in Japan?) and we want to show our honor, courage, and loyalty. Thus, as the norm in the time ( by the way we are in the 1200s ) the samurai takes his life ( out on a date for coffee and a movie ... okay that was lame I apologize) through the ancient ritual of Seppuku, or Hara-Kiri( Take your pick, it is the same thing). What is the purpose of this cultural compliance and conformity ( Point one for alliteration ). So if that is the reason, solely because others were doing it at the time, ridiculous. However, if there is a true belief that this is how to show these traits that one possesses, that is a bit redonk (technical term) if you ask me.

But to modernize the problem, people will do crazy shit to prove a point (yelling is a major one). It seems like "What you are on the computer all the time, I'm going to give you a virus!" is a normal solution to problems. Or perhaps, you stole my cookie, I shall never speak to you again until a cookie (of equal or greater taste value) is placed in my hand for my consumption. People need to relax, and realize some points are moot. Some points need not be made. Who cares if someone took a swig of milk straight from the container, that does not mean you go and pour cyanide in it to make the point that that is gross. I mean, these are obtuse (not scalene or equilateral) examples which also toy (Not made by Mattel) around with the idea of revenge, but the point is (I don't really have a point) these extreme proofs and revenge techniques are redonk (see, really is a technical term).

There is the opposite where a person will become so false with themselves and another person (I am reminded of a decoy from Toejam and Earl for Sega genesis) that they, by attempting so hard to prove a point, actually miss the point completely. Por ejemplo (otra vez, a person will be oh so nice to someone to prove that they do in fact, like the person, but become completely fake that they laugh at unfunny jokes (like everyone who has laughed at this italics thus far). Now, this other person believes that you share a similar humor, when in fact you do not, and now your entire friendship or "niceness" (What?) is built off of lies, and the faux friendship will sink (HAHA lame pun).

Anyway, I am done rambling for now, that is my discovery. It ties in the ideas of revenge, falsity, and attempted point provers, all into one neatly wrapped present (which Santa cannot just fit down the chimney).

Enjoy the day!

"Stressing a point to prove it only proves you have a point you are stressing about."

Random Stik

The sorting hat says that I belong in Hufflepuff!

Said Hufflepuff, "I'll teach the lot, and treat them just the same."

Hufflepuff students are friendly, fair-minded, modest, and hard-working. A well-known member was Cedric Diggory, who represented Hogwarts in the most recent Triwizard Tournament.

 

Take the most scientific Harry Potter
Quiz ever created.

Get Sorted Now!

No idea why I did this, but I did ... and I am in Hufflepuff ... I do not even read Harry Potter but I am proud to be a part of Hufflepuff ... I guess ...

The World

I guess I just want to rant a little bit, or as I have started to say recently, a likkle bit. I think I heard it in Calabria and then started using it ever since. Regardless, I found that people are naturally not gullible. Actually, it is not as simple as that, because people tend to be gullible on a lot of other things, however, when it comes to more serious things, people are not gullible at all.

Why is it, when people say something such as, "Hey, you're physically attractive," and do not say, "Who says that? This is an unrealistic example," because someone said it to me on the boardwalk of Ocean City so HA! Anyway, when people say things like this, people have a terribly difficult time believing them. It is seemingly impossible to find someone, except for people who are described as "arrogant" to be like, "hey, you know what, I actually kind of am." Yet, we look down upon people who accept compliments, saying, "Oh, look, he is so cocky knowing he is good looking." If the person is attractive the person is attractive. If you are thinking, yeah she actually is attractive, or he is good at tennis, and then they know it, how is that wrong of them to admit? Perhaps they are not humble, but not being humble does not just mean arrogance. Perhaps they just are confident, the fine line that splits the two. Regardless, this is not the meaning of this post.

So, people say things all of the time, "I like you," "What you did was fine," "I am okay, truly," and yet people say, "No you are not.", as if people continually tell lies upon lies to everyone. It is weird to see people who you are actually friends with too deny things like, "You cannot possibly feel like that, tell me the truth." I just think about it for a bit and just cannot comprehend why I would lie to begin with. You ask me "How are you" or "What is your opinion of this" or "Do you hate me?" and I answer. I do not care if it is opposite of what you thought my answer would be, just trust the fact that I have no reason to lie to you. If I am feeling shitty, have confidence that I am going to say it. I understand this world is lacking communication, but it is perhaps because we do not care enough to believe people anymore. Perhaps it just frustrates me, because I trust everything a person says, and also expect that in return. I also believe I have no reason to lie and thus always tell the truth, and when someone things that I am not telling the truth, it frustrates the crap out of me.

This ties in with do not assume something about me either. I am complicated as an individual like any other unique person on this earth. Sometimes I react differently than you would, or you think I would. Sometimes I shock myself. The only thing you can do is if you assume something and it is wrong, accept that you were wrong and do NOT fight me saying that I cannot possibly feel that way or think like that. I understand sometimes it is hard to be like, "Oh, okay, well that is not what I was thinking," because some situations are just very difficult to comprehend. People are enigmas. We live in a mysterious world. And nothing seems constant or predictable.

Start trusting your fellow human. If they lie to you, it is their problem because it very difficult to live a life full of lies, and a way to make someone live freer and richer is by telling people the truth.

I have no idea if this makes any sense, it was a rush of emotion I had to write down. I apologize to the readers and my future self when I re-read this and think to myself, "Why, that made no sense. Good job past me." Smile.

"The world is full of people, and the only way to know what they are saying, is by listening."

Realization II

I, in all honestly, am not entirely sure why I am entitling this "realization," as I am not entirely sure what exactly I am realizing. But regardless, I have no transition from that sentence into this one.

So I received my "diario linguistico" (include the accents yourself) back today ... that 20 page masterpiece that I took several billions of hours to compile (slight exaggeration). Well, turns out, not so positive. In fact, quite disappointing and abysmal. So, I am just a little bit furious at myself. I need to learn proper Spanish grammar, because it continually murders me in every one of my classes, because it is the basics. You cannot describe history or a novel if you can't speak properly. Thus, majority of the points that I lost, was based off of the fact that my high school teachers did not teach me anything about Spanish. Needless to say, FUCK

Also, I realized that my best friend John is a brilliant writer. I do not think I ever directly told him, nor do I plan on doing it anytime soon I don't think, unless he reads this, but would he actually? John if you read this, tell me. I mean, I would tell him but I am pretty sure he would just think I am more crazy than I already am. I feel like he would just shrug my compliments off like friend's normally do. But he truly is a brilliant writer. Not to mention, his critiques of other writers are hysterical. I am pretty sure he makes fun of my word choice and works behind me back, but the fact that he has read them, makes me feel honored anyway.

Those are two of my realizations, although both of them are not new, because I knew both of these things easily about a year and a half ago as well. But I guess I finally realized I should write them down, and keep a more permanent record of things. I do not know why. Maybe I just wanted to write in my blog for the first time in about three weeks. Could be that.

Yup. Wow, do I really have nothing to say right now? Shocking.

"Be there for everyone, the world counts on it."

The Catch Up

Well then, it has been a little over two weeks since I last blogged, and I consider that an accomplishment. Although, that does mean that my Spring Break is now definitely more of a distant memory than just a "hey did that just happen" moment. Regardless, I just burnt my tongue on soup.

So I have been working non-stop, or seemingly so as obviously I had to have stopped at some portion of my day or night to relax, or do absolutely nothing because I was too fed up with work, since I got back to college. My calendar is ridiculous with 217 Presentation!,Workshop due!, etc. I guess it is not too full actually, but to me it seems full because I never kept a calendar before, plus the fact that these were full presentations that were unable to be completed just the day before, as much as I wish that was untrue. So when I see "presentation due" I just take that and the proceeding week and considered it like one big event. So yeah, I do not have time is the point of this story.

Obviously when I have no time to do anything, this is when I blog, because that makes sense. So I have a presentation tomorrow to complete, as well as regular homework, and then another paper on Thursday and a huge project on Friday. Fantastic. I obviously could have been doing this, and according to the professors "should have been doing" these things from the moment they assigned it. However, work always looks more promising tomorrow. Today I deserve a rest. Yet tomorrow never comes, so the saying goes. Is it even a saying? It is something that many people say, so whatever.

Alright, so what else has happened... hmmm... I really wish something exciting has happened, like an incomparable orgasm that the entire world felt with me, but alas, none of that quite yet. I have been playing board games / card games more recently again. Including but not limited to Munchkin,Killer Bunnies,Catchphrase, and Bang!. All of these are very enjoyable games and hold true to the "the more the merrier" plea. Thus, if you have friends, congratulations, and you should maybe pick up one of these games some time. If you don't, I will not cry, nor will I even know.

So, that is about the only catch up you have to catch up with with me. Did that sentence make sense? Eh, I'm over it.

Talk to someone new today! Or somebody you haven't talked to in a while!

"Sometimes people underestimate the importance of a good friend."

Mi Vida Parte 3

Well, I am sad to say, not really that this SHOULD be the last of the library series, at least for the public library at home. This is because I plan on finishing my presentation today, even though at this current moment, and two hours into the work today, I am not halfway done. This is upsetting news, but I am determined to stay today till the end of this presentation. Thus, I may be here till closing time, but I will complete this assignment.

So, that is my update on why I am here, again, but let me move further into my life otherwise. Last night I stayed out till 1:45, mainly talking about being green and problems with our society. The usual. I also watched, El Mago, which was terrible, at least in my opinion. The story seemed erratic and was hard to concentrate on one story and it seemed jumpy in too many portions of the movie. It seemed the movie itself had ADD and that every character had split personalities and one emotion lasted for about twenty seconds before it would change gears into another emotion. I found myself laughing at the characters more than empathizing. I would give it about a half of a star. But, it was actually fairly easy to understand without subtitles, which is awesome. Either my Spanish is improving or that was just a really "simplistically languaged" movie. I just made that term up, because the squiggly red line is telling me that languaged is not a word, and I believe it. Thus, "simplistically languaged" is pretty easily defined as language which is simple to comprehend even if not a native speaker of the language itself, AKA elementary school level language. Okay, I am done with superfluously explaining that.

So now a new paragraph! I am almost doing work, I just needed a break right now and this always helps, although when I am done with this I am probably going to rest again by just staring at the wall. Okay, well I really have little to say, which is sad, I mean I could go on but it would be more than just rambling, it would be complete bullshit. Here are some big words for your enjoyment!

Manatee

Falasha

Atelier

Okay, I am done. I think. Until two more hours pass and I blog about nothing once again.

SMILE

"The depths of the ocean cannot cover the smile of one human."

Mi Vida Parte 2

I should just call this the Library Series, considering I am more than likely going to end up being here tomorrow as well. This is also part of the Library Series Short Stick considering this really is just random babbling about anything in my head. Which I guess the point of the blog to begin with.

Yesterday was a good night. Went bowling and to half price appetizers at Applebee's, but it was just a bunch of laughs followed by more laughs. It was a solid night of fun and entertainment for under 20 bucks. Lots of inside jokes created. Also, apparently I am a lard and ate a grande quesadilla as well as spinach and artichoke dip and a chocolate chip desert mess thing, and I was not completely full afterward. Which was weird.

Wow, it is sad that when you just blogged yesterday about everything how little you have to talk about the next day. I have had no epiphanies, no crazy experiences, besides the night but I basically already sad that, and this morning I woke up late and ended up in the library to do nothing again. I am really going to probably be screwed for this presentation.

Liberation theory is going to be the DEATH of me. It is going to be sad. I think I am progressing in it. However, I am so focused on this one project that I am not even remotely doing anything for my other presentations. But my other presentations are not as major I suppose, nor are they on a topic I have no clue what is going on. There is so much detail and ambiguity and points of view it is just a mess to try to organize. But I am trying.

There is this ridiculously annoying humming/whistling sound. I thought it was wind, but alas, there is no wind outside as none of the trees are moving in any way. And now a baby is crying. This is why the library is surprisingly not the best place to do work. The distractions just keep piling on. Then add facebook and AIM, and my life is a complete distraction. Again though, perhaps I will be able to do more work later in the night and tomorrow. I need this done before going to Binghamton!

Okay, I actually think I am done blogging for now. Perhaps I will continue this tomorrow, when I am probably in the library for the third straight day.

Crazy.

"Work is like a creepy guy that approaches you and asks you a question, you just need to answer it and hope he goes away."

Mi Vida

So, I am at the public library, weird, because I am trying to do work. The only problem is, I have absolutely no motivation to do anything. So I figured I would blog about my life, something I have yet to do with specific details.

So, I am on Spring Break, which is an excuse for students to forget they are young adults and act like they are five again. Now this is for the various reasons of typically no one works over spring break, typically the Spring Breaks of schools are different so many friends are still at school while some are not, and because typically there is nothing really exciting to do. So, students, myself included, resort to finding everything entertaining. I have resorted to bouncy balls and hacky sacks myself. It is not a bad thing at all, I am in love with Spring Break, as I should be. It is the time where you actually have nothing to do, and cannot get scolded for doing nothing. Except, this break I actually could be doing my presentations, which are the reasons I am in the library to begin with.

Regardless of what I "should" be doing, the fact of the matter is I am not doing it, and I am not really that stressed out by the lack of doing it. Perhaps I will have to come back to the library tomorrow, strike that. Perhaps I will have to come back to the library tomorrow, but whatever. It is not like I would be doing anything more productive at home, except eating grapes.

So I am at that point where I believe every movement I make is the loudest noise and that everyone in the library is thinking, "Gah will that kid just stop moving?!" I am hoping that is not the case, but it may very well be. Also, I just looked over to my left to see a scary picture of Rosie O'Donnell reading a book, with the word READ above her faux shocked face while reading "Beezus and Ramona" by Beverely Cleary. Oh the Public Library, update your posters please.

It is already Tuesday, did you bring your coat? Sorry, but anyway, this means that I am gradually losing more and more spring break relaxation and am going to need to face the reality of school once more. Once I hit April I should be good again though. I just have too much work due in this coming month, and as you can tell, instead of doing it I am blogging/complaining about the work that needs to be done. Oh the irony. Not really.

P-p-p-poker face. Oh Lady Gaga, how your beats are so catchy. 'Cause I'm bluffin' with my muffin. I need to stop now. Okay. So I just stared at people behind me for no good reason for an extended period of time. I just could not move my neck back to the forward position for whatever reason, so now they probably think I am a weird or want some crazy threesome. Which, trust me, I would not.

Okay, so this weekend I am intruding, okay maybe not intruding but I do feel like I am a little, by going to Binghamton with Helen and Marissa to meet Alysse and turn HAM into MATH, which is like saying, if I have two hams and I eat one, how many hams do I have now? But I am excited regardless because I miss Alysse like no other, and of course Helen and Marissa but I have seen them more recently. It should be entertaining regardless.

I want to play Mario Kart. I am champ in that game. Double Dash. But I feel like since I just announced that the next time I play I am going to lose... miserably. So be it.

I also want to play tennis. I am even a bigger champion at that. Again, next time I play I feel like I am going to lose. But I am on a winning streak! For now. I haven't dropped a set in a while. I am completely jinxing myself. That reminds me of the pokemon Jynx. But I digress... actually I do not, because I was going no where to begin with.

Okay, so there you go, I updated my blog, which I have been meaning to do but with the obvious lack of time with all of this work I am doing, I could not update it sooner.


"Who ever said "Don't put off tomorrow what you could do today" never enjoyed his life."

...

I will write in my blog soon...

Just not tonight.

Keep an eye out.

Survey

I enjoyed filling out the first survey, that I am doing another and will probably do more to follow, thus, I am making a new survey section. This the first one of it, although technically the second, but shhh

Completely Ridiculously Random Survey
(Some questions were deleted due to stupidity or superfluity.)

(There are edited answers as the first time I answered them I answered them incorrectly but I kept them anyway, for humor purposes. Thanks Lee!)

What is the single largest item in your house? I want to say pool table. Or Bar. Tough call
How well can you write your name with your non dominant hand? Fairly well actually, looks like a third grader's handwriting.
What color is your bedroom? It is going to be painted a dark shade of green.
What type of computer mouse do you use? This light up Targus one which shows what mood I am in to everyone else. It is pretty sweet. I won't lie, I love it.
Have you ever jumped off of a high dive? Nope.
Do you take vitamins? I do not believe in them, but I take them sporadically when I feel like I didn't eat enough vitamins myself in the day.
Do you like to color inside the lines? Yes I do. Love it actually.
What do you have set as your home page? www.atptennis.com Yup. Love the tennis.
Do you have your own radio? I don't understand this question. I am going to say no? I mean, I have one in my car... but I am thinking that does not count? I am thinking this means like boombox type deal.
Where would you hate to have to work? Hmm ... a dumpster?
Who is on your speed dial? Best friends.
Do you prefer lightbulbs or candles? Lightbulbs (energy efficient ones!)
How much money did you spend today? $17.05 so far.
What are you sitting on right now? A ... chair ...
Do you look at yourself when you pass by reflective surfaces? All the time. I am so vain. Oops.
Would you ever get plastic surgery? Not for anything major, but I already got a mole removed once.
Did you play with shaving cream when you were a kid? No. Nor do I play with it now?
How big is your bed? Twin I believe. Got me.
Do you like the smell of axe? Not really. (At first I read this as sex and was like ... umm what? ... shows where my mind is.)
What is your favorite flavor of lifesavers? Pineapple! Delicious.
Have you ever seen a volcano? No but that would be so cool if I did.
What is the best Halloween costume you have ever worn? No idea. I cannot remember, I am not a Halloween person.
What kind of soap do you use? Depends on what I buy ... duh.
Can you snowboard? I can. Not well. But that was not the question.
How many icons do you have on your desktop? 12. But I could get rid of like 3 of them.
Do you understand how telephones work? I do not understand how a lot of things work. All I know is that they do work.
Do you write notes on your body? No.
What is the prominent color in your closet? There is not one... I think like blue or gray. Also, I read this as color in your chest... and was thoroughly confused for a good ten seconds.
What is sitting next to you right now? Another computer, haha.
Do you believe in lots of conspiracies? Not really.
Do you own any really old video game systems? Sega Genesis. We have an intellivision somewhere, but I don't know where.
Are you good at baking? Cooking yes. Baking, no.
Have you ever made your own clothing? I silk screened something on my shirt once, that is about it. And it was for class.
How many doors does your house have? I keep losing count. I am just going to stop and say something between 10 - 15.
Do you prefer tootsie pops or blow pops? Tootsie. No contest.
Do you sneak into movie theatres? Nope.
Are you a really fast text messager? I am told yes.
Do you have anything you keep on you 24/7? Cell Phone. And my nipples.
Do you usually write in print or in cursive? Prinsive. Which is a healthy mix of both print and cursive at the same time.
What was your first job? Camp Counselor
Do you prefer crushed ice or cubed?Crushed.
Have you ever made a mixed cd for someone? Yes. Good times.
What do you want to buy from an infomercial? Magic Bullet. Heard it is not that good though.
Do you believe that animals have souls? Yes.
What word/phrase do you find really annoying? I actually cannot think of one, probably just cliche ones.
Do you have a lava lamp or a black light? Yes.
Do you find yourself not having enough electrical outlets? Nope.
What is the longest you can wait patiently? Depends on what I am waiting for.
Have you ever been under anesthesia? Yes, procaine AKA novocaine.
Are your fingernails long or short? Short right now.
Are you afraid of bright colors? No.
Can you tell people honest things to their face? Yes.
Would you rather eat grits or oatmeal? Yikes, neither. But probably oatmeal.
Do you own a kite? Nope. I should though.
Have you ever run down and up escalator or vice versa? I want to but have yet to do so.
What do you think of clothing for pets? Pointless and capitalistic.
Do you tend to want things you cannot have? Not really.
Is it true that you can be anything you want to be? Yeah, for the most part.
Were your parents honest to you about serious things when you were little? I think so.
Would you ever dye your hair purple? Nopes. Not purple.
Who do you think should play you in a movie? Michael Cera
Would you ever kill someone? Never.
Do you prefer stripes or polka dots? Stripes
Do you dot your is and cross your ts? Yes? Otherwise they would be lines...
Are you double jointed in any way? No. Have hyper extension though.
What kind of super power do you wish you had? Something with the mind, probably telekinesis.
Are you easily offended? No. I don't think so.
How often do you watch the news? Rarely.
Do you have nightmares very much? Nope. Just awesome dreams of awesomeness.
Which power ranger was your favorite? Kimberly, the Pink Ranger. How embarrassing.
Did the movie Jaws ever scare you? No.
Have you ever cried to get away with something? Once. Whoops.
Are you friends with anyone famous? No?
Do you lack common sense sometimes? Yes. More than sometimes.
Are you afraid of snakes? Only ones that come out of nowhere.
Do you use recycle bins at your house? Yes!!!!
How hot do you like the water in your shower? Scorching.
Do you ever walk around your house naked? Rarely, but yes.
Do you want to be bilingual? I want to be multilingual, so yes.
Do you lie to make people feel better? Seldom. The truth is important.
How many times a day do you look at the clock? Cannot remotely count that.
Do you like to organize things? Yeah but they never stay that way.
Do you like the game red rover? Never really played.
Which is better, thick crust or thin? Thin.
How good are you at keeping secrets?Yes, I think. EDIT: I am fairly decent
What stupid little thing really stresses you out? Sometimes. Trying to eliminate that. EDIT: Pimples.
Can you remember what you wore yesterday? Yes. But I'm not telling.
What do you think the drinking age should be? 18.
Do you like to wear socks? They keep my feet warm, so yes.
What is the last cartoon you watched? The Simpsons I believe.
What does your bed comforter look like? It looks like a blue bed comforter?


SMILE!

Randomness

Tangent

I always come to my computer,
Hoping to write a poem.
With unforgettable rhythm,
That sticks in your head,
Like a spoon,
When you try to scoop out ice cream,
But you bought it like weeks ago,
And it is frozen solid.
So frustrating. Where was I?
That is right, but I never get around to writing it.
I am so lazy, that the words seem,
You know when you driving on snow
And you just hit the acceleration too much
When you were completely stopped.
The wheels move but you move no where,
And you start to slide and you get nervous.
It happened to me once, December of 2007.
I was stopped at a stop sign, and this bitch
Decided she was going to not stop
And just ignore the giant red sign.
Man I wish I was a cop,
Just to pull over whores like her.
She was a brunette, with her eyes wide,
I think she just got her license.
All the more reason to ticket her.
So, she passed through, and I was so angry,
I hit the accelerator with more force.
It slipped, I slid, I screamed for a moment.
But I realized I just need to lighten up,
And then slowly press on the gas again.
It was a scary moment, but I forget,
Why did I mention this?
Oh, because that is what I feel like.
When I come to the computer, I slam on the accelerator,
And expect a masterpiece.
Like I am some Andy Warhol portrait of
Condensed Soup. Which I never understood to begin with.
But do not even get me started on that.

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Car Affair

Of course on the highway
You would show yourself.
I never met you before,
Some new white make,
Probably from some popular
Convertible manufacturer.
Slowly you let me glimpse,
Then you speed hurriedly ahead.
Careless staring to the side,
I nearly ram the truck
In front of me.
I would have been demolished.
Yet, my foot still accelerated,
Around the traffic before me
To see your face once more.
Passing you, I stare.
Almost causing an accident once more.
Following you intently,
My jalopy loses your drift.
You sped away. Fast.
I kept my eyes on your tail.
Weaved in and out,
Tried to say Hello again,
But my exit came up, and
You were not changing lanes.
I knew this was good-bye,
Forever. So long white car.
You never knew me,
But we had an affair.

Short Stik V

I realized I have not written in a little, and thus, due to lack of something to really state, I am going to fill out the lame surveys that you usually see on facebook and myspace. Enjoy!


1. First thing you wash in the shower? Stomach
2. What color is your favorite hoodie? Grey, I prefer zip-up sweatshirts though
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Yes...duh
4.Do you plan outfits? HA! If I did I would probably look a lot better than I currently do...
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? Complacent
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? A red envelope
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?Depends on who I am talking to but normally AIM
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? I had to give a Spanish presentation to my class but I was not prepared but the girl who went before me did it in English and the professor was quite disappointed which made me seem awesome when I gave mine in Spanish. That was a lame dream now that I come to realize it
9. Did you meet anybody new today? Negative. But the day is not over.
10. What are you craving right now? Watermelon
11. Do you floss? Nope. Not going to lie.
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? Bunnies!
13. When was the last time you talked on aim? Right now
14. Are you emotional? I have my moments.
15. Would you dance to the taco song? Probably.
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000? Sadly, yes.
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?Lick it.
18. Do you like your hair? Normally no.
19. Do you like yourself? Love myself!
20. Have you ever met a celebrity? I don't think so.
21. Do you like cottage cheese?Nope.
22. What are you listening to right now? Random music from my iTunes
23. How many countries have you visited?2, Mexico and Ireland, and if you want to count the United States then 3.
24. Are your parents strict? Decently, yes.
25. Would you go sky diving? Definitely!!! I want to badly.
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? Probably but I'd get really angry more than likely and depart early.
27. Would you throw potatoes at him? Umm...no
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in? Not that I can see.
29. Have you ever been in a castle? I have, Blarney Castle.
30. Do you rent movies often? Not often at all.
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class? I dropped all of my math classes. Thus, question does not apply.
32. Have you made a prank phone call? I have, and it was hilarious.
33. Do you own a gun? Absolutely not.
34. Can you count backwards from 74? Yes. Is that really a question?
35. Who are you going to be with tonight? Roommate Justin probably. Or be a loner.
36. Brown or white eggs? White.
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? Nope.
38. Ever been on a train? Many a time.
39. Ever been in love? Yes.
40. Do you have a cell-phone? Yes.
41. Are you too forgiving? I don't think I am too forgiving, no.
42. Do you use chap stick? Sometimes.
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow? I don't know, plus I don't just have one best friend so, I cannot answer this one simply.
44. Can you use chop sticks? Not at all.
45. Ever have cream puffs? I have and I do not enjoy.
46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? Nope.
47. What was the last question you asked? How are you?
48. What was the last CD you bought? Kenny Chesney? I haven't bought a CD in a long time.
49. Boys or girls? What is this in relation to? This is not even a real question.
50. What is your bus number for school? I think it was like 12 or 10 or something, I cannot remember.
51. Is your hair curly? Negative.
52. Last time you cried? Recently, let's leave it at that.
53. Ever walked into a wall? Still do.
54. Do looks matter? I'd be lying if I said no.
55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun? Nopes.
56. Have you ever slapped someone? Yup.
57. Favorite time of the year? Autumn.
58. Favorite color? Green.
59. Are you sarcastic? Not at all......
60. Do you have any tattoos? No.
61. The last person you held hands with? I honestly have no clue.
62. Do you sleep with the TV on? Used to. No longer unless I forget to put on the sleep timer.
63. Where was your default picture taken at? My townhouse.
64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people? Dislike... yes. Hate ... no.
65. Do you like your life right now? I do love life, although it is rather difficult right now.
66. How often do you talk on the phone? Very.
67. What is your favorite animal? PANDA!
68. What was the most recent thing you bought? Food.
69. Do you have good vision? Yes, yes I do.
70. Can you hula hoop? Indeed I can.
71. Could you ever forgive a cheater? Yes.
72. Do you have a job? Not currently unfortunately, just full time student.
73. Can you handle the truth? Yes. Please only give me it as well.
74. What are you wearing? Wouldn't you like to know?
75. Have you ever crawled through a window? Yes.

Hope you enjoyed and learned a little bit about me.

"Love the world you live in, even if it is rough at times."

The Short Stik IV

How unsatisfying is a check mark on a work handed into a professor? Normally I would not care, to be honest, as sometimes my mediocre buzzer beater paper probably would get me an "F" on a normal grading scale. However, there are times where I put my heart and soul into a work, okay maybe not that much, but I do devote an immense amount of time, which now seems superfluous for simply a "check mark" atop of my page. Can you at least make comments on anything. Positive or negative (but please more positive) comments on my style, word choice, and technique, I do not even care.

It is like, if I get no feedback, how am I supposed to know what to improve, or even if I did remotely well? Never have I hated check marks more than I did tonight. Obviously this is a direct reaction to receiving a piece of work, a creative piece written by yours truly, actually two pieces, with nothing except a check mark. It stared at me, mocking me, Congratulations! You are the fourteenth person to hand this in and get credit for doing your homework.

Bullshit.

Short Stik IV: Completed

"Keep smiling."