Realization III

you made me realize...
... that the world spins inevitably ...
... and that even without you i would not fly off ...
... because you are not holding me to the ground...
... even if i want you to...
... because you are not the source of my existence ...
... like the air i breathe or water i drink ...
... but just the nectar which sweetens it ...

you made me realize...
... that i can live without you ...
... although i cannot imagine that world ...
... the roses would still smell ...
... to me of your distant memory ...
... and the wind still would whisper ...
... the words that no longer escape your lips ...
... but i would be alive ...

you made me realize...
... there are other people in the world ...
... although your eyes are the most entrancing ...
... and when one door closes another shall open ...
... yet not to your house ...
... so the future inevitably will come ...
... with or without you ...
... with my smile still in your palm ...

you made me realize...
... i will never be alone even if you go ...
... "your friends," you whisper ...
... and the earth will not spontaneously combust ...
... the feeling would burn though ...
... nor will it freeze over to a barren arctic wasteland ...
... and i will be strong ...
... because you are not everything in my life ...

you made me realize...
... my body will function the same before and after you ...
... for you are not a drug nor disease ...
... and the pain only stings for a moment ...
... like the prick of a needle ...
... and soon i will forget the pain i felt ...
... but never that it was caused to me ...
... because the past is important to who i am today ...

you made me realize...
... that even though i can't write romantically ...
... with the blood in my faltering fingers ...
... you still believe in me ...
... and love me just the same ...
... kiss my cheek before i pass out on your side of the bed ...
... because i was so comfortable having you hold me ...
... and i dream of being awake in your arms once more ...

you made me realize...
... i really do not want anyone else ...
... just you ...
... to spoil, to kiss, to hold deep into the darkness ...
... where the horizon meets the drop ...
... so we can fly into the oblivion that is strength...
... of heart and soul ...
... as one complete being because ...

you made me realize...
... that when you are with me ...
... i think of nothing else ...
... and everything you made me realize before ...
... i completely forget ...
... and i fly off the world and into your arms ...
... and breathe you in like oxygen ...
... because i cannot live this world without you ...