Unforgivable

I thought this was different than what it was. And now the only thing I can fathom writing is one solid stream of consciousness without hesitation or re-visitation. I thought I was the one who wronged you, but you played me. You had me completely wrapped around your finger until you decided that it was good enough to release me. I used to think that maybe I was not a good enough person for you, until I realized that, hell, you are the biggest asshole I may have ever met. Now do not get me wrong, I still would do anything for you if you asked and I wish you only the best in life, but seriously, learn something along the way.

You were able to manipulate my heart like it was nothing, like you had no idea what that contained. You said all of the right words to soothe me when I was in pain, and yet you did it only to soothe your own pain while you set up the biggest mastermind scheme of them all, and you succeeded. Congratulations. And at what cost did you do it? None to you I can assure.

I have no pity for myself, or for you. All I can imagine is that you are happier than ever and I am happy for you. Just realize I will never forgive you for the way you decided to treat me, because no one should ever be in the position I was put in, and yet you found it "acceptable" to do so. However, I never wish your heart sinks as low as mine did and that you always have a smile on your face. Sometimes it is best to find out things in the worst way possible, then to live the biggest lie in the world.

Here is lesson one for your ongoing life's journey.
Do not be a coward
I would never feel this way if you just had the heart and balls to tell it like it was months ago.